Do I dare? Do I dare?

[thepeopleseason]

That I've stayed up until about 6:30 AM, for the most part playing Soul Calibur II on the PS2 with batnandu when I should have been catching up on sleep and TiVo so I could get an early start tomorrow is not of any particular annoyance.

That the minute possibility that I could escape my singlehood with a woman that appeared to reciprocate my interest is gone doesn't bother me so much.

That I'm fully cognizant of why the aforementioned possibility dried up does irk me slightly.

That my life resembles, however, apart from various poems and plays, a Billy Joel ballad just makes me feel all the more prosaic.

"And So It Goes" - Billy Joel
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

Comments

[xopherg.livejournal.com]

so who was the young lady?

[thepeopleseason.livejournal.com]

A Bartender/Waitress at the usual (upstairs) spot.

[murielle.livejournal.com]

I wonder, if men understood women, and women understood men, would there be any point, really?

It's all in the challenge!

[thepeopleseason.livejournal.com]

Heh. The arrogantly presumptuous part of me would say that I have a pretty good understanding of women--it's getting past my own hangups that's the big problem.

[murielle.livejournal.com]

I'm still trying to understand myself so I can't honestly expect to understand, or be understood by, anyone else. I guess that's *my* hang-up.

I hear you.